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Am I a Candidate for Age Play?

young at heart

LOL, this question has been bugging me for a few months now.

It’s not that I am don’t have the potential to be an AP’er.

Actually, I am one of the youngest people in every group I belong in- either by age or by actions.

I have always been a child at heart. I delight in dancing and singing, skipping, jumping, and climbing trees. I love playing, and I love the freedom that comes from just being me.

My good friends, Corinne and Renee confirmed for me last year, that my spirit animal is the otter.

Some of the associations with the otter are:

  • Creativity
  • Imagination
  • Laughter
  • playfulness
  • curiosity
  • joy
  • love of the young

This fits me perfectly!

But I also live in the conflicting reality that I am a 41 year old wife, SAHM, and mother to two children. (whom I love with all my heart!)

My responsible side tells me

“there is no room for such frivolities or foolishness.

“You are in charge. Stop playing. Mold these little minds. Clean the house. Put on some cool clothes and jewelry (and Heaven forbid, some makeup!) like the other moms.

Stand on the side and watch the children play. Catch up on the gossip. Compete with the other mommies, and make sure they know how much better you are at your job.”

And for the last time, please do something with your unpainted toe nails- jeesh!

Grow up already!”

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But the truth is:

I like playing with the kids.

I prefer to not listen to the drama and gossip.

I like not competing- unless it’s a sport. If you want to go for a run, I will toast your *ss! 🙂

Oh, and I love charades!

The problem is that I haven’t found a way to explore this new dynamic yet. I know, because of my responsibilities, I need to find a happy medium between play and work.

I think my husband may even be starting to get the picture that I need some “little” time.

He spanked me, the other night, for “acting like a brat”. His words EXACTLY!

This is a story for another time, because there is a lot that came from that one word. But I’ll tell you. It did something to me. It opened up a need that I have been pushing down for a very long time.

I still don’t quite understand what this need is, or what it entails, or even if we will explore. But I know it is there. And my husband is getting the picture.

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So guess what I am doing today?

In honor of the movie “Frozen” coming out on DVD, I am hosting a (very last minute!) viewing party for my daughters’ friends.

We will eat pizza and cupcakes.

We will watch the movie and laugh and giggle.

We will dance and sing at the top of our lungs to songs like “Let it go.” *****

And you know what? I won’t be embarrassed to be myself. Because the kids don’t judge me. They accept me for who I am.

A child at heart.

And hopefully after today, the coolest mom in the neighborhood! 😉

(If you have never heard this song, please go listen to it. It is amazing! The words are so meaningful. They are what inspired me to write this post this morning. And if I have more time later, I will write more. I’m not sure if I am allowed to post the link here. So if anyone sees a problem with this, please let me know, and I will delete it.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L0MK7qz13bU

But here are some of the words that touched me the most. 

Update.

I don’t want to get into any trouble for posting lyrics, so I’m going to have to delete this next section.  But you can see the lyrics if you do a google search. 🙂

They are beautiful!

Thanks! 🙂

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